Thursday, April 12, 2007

The Irony...

...of it all. How could I have known that just a few hours after posting the previous Bible study thoughts I would learn that Andrew's deployment is being extended an extra 3 months? I felt like I'd had the wind knocked out of me.

I spent most of yesterday running the gamut of emotions from anger, to sorrow, to unbelief, to disappointment, to confusion, to asking God "WHY?? I've give everything! Why do You keep requiring more? What do you want from me?"

Andrew and I got to hang out together last night online. I told him everything I was thinking and feeling and wondering. And this morning I woke up to an email from him. I've included an excerpt here. (Okay, so I can never be mad at God for long...He gave me such a wise and loving husband!)

"This too shall pass, and underneath are the everlasting arms. God is carrying us through this, Cass. We can't see Him, but we CAN know Him and that is what He desires through this. God generally wants us to accept, obey, then understand... okay, so we really have no choice but to obey... but He still wants us to accept this from Him. He only gives us things for our good. He only gives us good things. Gosh! That's what faith must be - agreeing with Him against all odds that what He says is good... is good. Those who would please God, must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him."

Andrew is my rock. And God is our strength.

And the words of the previous post still stand.


Mrs. Bouldin said...

Cass -

I heard this and there were so many people going through my mind. You and Andrew included. My husband is National Guard, so as of right now, this doesn't apply to us, but I do know how you feel. My husband was supposed to come home in July, but he volunteered to stay behind for up to 3-4 months.
There is a reason for everything and God wouldn't be putting you two through this if He thought yall couldn't handle it. I always doubted my strength and God is showing me, and you, that as a military wives and women, we can make it through the most difficult of times. I don't know yall personally, but from the stuff yall write I can tell God is working in yall's marriage and yall can make it through all this.

They will be home soon. It seems like an eternity, but just think about how much time has gone by already!! Keep busy and I'm praying for yall. I'm so sorry this affected you and your husband.


sethswifeforlife said...

Praying for an extra major amount of strength and peace for you today, and the coming months.
Our Redeemer LIVES! And HE is alive in both of you.
HIS LOVE endures forever, even throught he storms of life!
Love you!

mommykendras said...

"Before they call, I will answer; while they are still speaking I will hear." (Isaiah 65:24)It is amazing how God comes just in time. We are praying for you guys and know that great things are ahead. How great a comfort it is that we cannot outlast or outgrow God's faithfulness!

rosannabud said...

So so so sorry to hear this, Dear! I'm praying for you, as usual. Love you heaps and heaps. <3 ~R

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